Physical Disability Is No Barrier To Success.

My inspiration comes from people who lives a very simple every day life ; Ordinary people with extra-ordinary stories to share. Some are so strong that nothing can ever cut their path short – not even physical ability. This time, I am going to share a story about a man who is not only strong-willed but also determined to be successful despite of his physical condition. After reading through his story, I realize that each one of use are blessed with an ability, beyond the naked eye. Sometimes its in your mind and sometimes its in your spirit.

The person I am referring to here is KHAIRUL NIZAM, the founder of JAMU MALL. Khairul Nizam is one of the many successful entrepreneurs in our country – and what makes him special is the limitation on his physical functioning. At the age of 30, he managed to build an empire that allows him to live a life that is sufficient to support not only himself but his family too.

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To know more about Khairul Nizam, you may read his struggles in his own words :

Diusia 30 .. dgn keadaan cacat .. aku betsyukur dgn kehidupan .. aku berjaya membina satu syarikat jamumall sdn bhd , dan membina platform jualan jamumall.com .., aku happy mampu beli ape ku nak , mampu makan yg mewah , mampu travel ke dubai , korea , japan, australia dan byk negara aku dan sampai.. yg paling best aku dpt sediakan rumah meeah utk keluarga , tanggung family dan bersedekah setiap hari …

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Bukan nak riak … tapi aku tau ramai sebenarnye org diluar sane nak jadi mcm aku , nak byk duit mcm aku , nk bahagiakan family mereka mcm aku .. tapiii adakah mereka sekuat aku??

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kehidupan aku dulu tak mcm ni. Bayangkan anda di dalam jasad aku.. makan perlu disuap , mandi perlu diuruskan , duduk perlu diangkat , dan tidor perlu dijaga , bukan mudah untuk aku meneruskan kehidupan seharian .

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Aku menanggung kehidupan ini bukan sehari , bukan tiga hari , bukan seminggu , bukan sebulan tetapi bertahun tahun !!! Ade ketika saya rasa sangat terkesan bile ade ketika bile sy haus , lapar , penat , takde org disisi .. tapi takkan aku nak mengharapkan mati??? Allah beri aku nyawa , nafas , sedikit kekuatan jari dan akal mesti ade sesuatu manfaat yg nak aku buat ..

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Aku cube merenung dan mengimbas kehidupan ramai org diluar .. kalaulah aku di beri tubuh fizikal sempurna , boleh berjalan , berlari , melompat pasti akan aku gunakan sehabis baik untuk beri manfaat pada org lain …
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Aku melihat ramai yg malas untuk ubah hidup sendiri  , ramai yg suke bg bermacam alasan bile bekerja, ramai yg cepat giveup bile ade cabaran !!
Ramai cube memilih untuk kerja senang , taknak susah , lebih memilih kehidupan susah tanpa usaha dengan kuat , sanggup berhenti kerja dan mengangur bertahun2 atas dasar ego boleh bergerak sendiri dan sanggup melihat keluarga dan org sekeliling susah, Paling terkesan nak bg duit mak dan ayah, family pun tak mampu … Aku sedih !!! Terdetik keinginan aku untuk bantu mereka …
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Jadi aku bangkit!!! Aku cuba buktikan pada masyarakat the best kehidupan adalah atas dasar bersyukur .. bersyukur dengan nikmat yg allah beri dan jangan sia2 kan , aku bangkit untuk beri manfaat pada org lain . Aku nak satu dunia nampak hanya 3 jari dan satu akal aku dpt melihat kegembiraan , senyuman ramai org2 disekeliling aku ..
Kini aku sedar .. untuk berjaya dlm kehidupan , pekerjaan , mahupun bisnes bukan mudah . Tetapi atas keinginan yg kuat , kasih syg yg hebat , keberanian yg tinggi , suka berlajar dan improve diri , dan juga seorang yg berkomitmen tinggi membawa aku ketahap sekarang .. Dan semua value yg ade dlm diri aku akan aku bawakan kedalam semua team aku dan masyarakat untuk mereka bangkit , bersemangat , dan berjaya !!
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Akhir kata … kalau aku ada 3 jari dan akal mampu membina kehidupan sendiri dan kebahagiaan org sekeliling .. anda ade berapa jari untuk ubah kehidupan?? Usia semakin meningkat, jangan tunggu lagi.. kite je mampu ubah diri kita!!

Inspiring wasn’t it? I am truly inspired and decided to follow him. Check out his pages below :

✵ Primero Tatuaje ✵

They say there is a story behind every tattoo. Mine is simple. In fact – the most common one, in my personal opinion. Ribbon. Colorless. Seems childish, I know but the heart wants what it wants. Got my first tattoo 4 years ago, it was a long overdue plan and I didn’t want to push any longer so I decided to go with a ribbon. It was a random thought that jump into my mind – and I was like “Well, that’s it”. Once I got inked – people was quite curious, and started questioning, like “Why ribbon?”, “why colorless?”.

There were even weird questions – some even wondered if it was an inspiration from my favorite disney princess, Cinderella. At that point, it was super annoying and i often sigh about it, genuinely couldn’t find the essence to talk about my tattoo. It was less than 5 cm in size but was such a big concern for many. Eventually, I gave up and prepared a whole story in my head – LITERALLY. I knew exactly what to say – but honest, and it took quite a number of revisits to find why RIBBON was good enough to be my first tattoo.

My answer, like I’ve mentioned earlier, is as simple as my tattoo – my tattoo symbolizes the action of “giving love”. How does a ribbon can be a symbol of such action you may ask, but again tattoo stories with individual, it is a personal choice – something we want others to respect ; just like our personal space. This is the “thing” that was there in my head in the moment, and kept lingering around – it was almost difficult to take it out thus I took it a sign. I am someone who believes in love and kindness – people are capable of these and we should always spread positive vibes, than the negative ones.

And a colorless ribbon symbolizes the action has no boundaries – it is an oath to love each other without looking at one’s external but to love them with no borders – to spread kindness and love no matter where you are. It is also a symbol that love is not within human being only – it can be extended to our Mother Nature and everything we are blessed with in this universe and beyond. It is a reminder of what the fundamental of love really is to show kindness, genuine care and all the little things I do to make someone happy. It acts as the anchor to my values – holding me grounded to what I am passionate about and to always be as compassionate as I am – in spite of the circumstances.

3 Steps To Start Reading.

The most frequent question I received from people is how I practice an avid reading lifestyle. It was not something that I have developed over the years, it came naturally to me as I have always been interested in reading as a little kid ;  my favorite spot is indeed the library. I remember, when I won my first book at the age of 8 after scoring the best for English, I knew I could own books and started practicing the “Barter System” with my mother. I help her with her chores and she will get me a book as the wage, this was how it worked till I started earning. Over the years, I grew too fond of books to live without them and that is perfectly how I like it to be, but it is not something you need practice as child to make it a habit as an adult. I have helped my friends and family to start a healthy reading habit with only 3 simple steps that I am going to share with you.

1. Experiment with genres and pick the one that is interesting to you.

Not all books are meant to be read by everyone – some of the genres available are not your cup of tea. What is the best way to figure it out ? Experiment. Visit your friends or rumble through your sibling’s book racks, you might find something in there that could be interesting to you. Read the synopsis as a heads up to know the content of the book – but be mindful that synopsis functions as the precis of the book, hence you will come across instances where the content of the book is not equivalent to it.   Don’t even try to read the books that are not your type for the sake of staying in par with trend.

2. Borrow from friends, family or the local library. 

The best way to start a reading habit is to go old school – BORROW ! This will create a habit of “must read” as borrowing means to set a deadline, where you are obliged to complete a book by the set of dates to avoid feeling remorse, subsequently. This will also provide an opportunity to read as many books – from ancient to modern works in the genre of your preference, all for free. 

3.  Read it anytime and anywhere. 

As the saying goes, to make it a habit – you are required to practice it for 21 days. So spend all the free time you have between activities to read.  If you have a doctor’s appointment, show up early to read a page or two, even more. If you are standing in a long line while shopping or purchasing movie tickets, read few more pages. Read while you are in an elevator if you are an introvert that hates awkward chats. All the little practices will definitely turn into a habit that will forever be a treasure.

That is pretty much what I have been advising to my friends and family who are interested in creating a good reading lifestyle. It is not a tough task to accomplished and if there’s a will to read, there will be ways to do it.

Your Turn

Are you happy with how much you read ? What advice would you give someone who wants to know how to create a good reading lifestyle? Share your tip in a comment below!

A Letter to the Broken Shadow. 


You’re not their home. 

You’re just a stop, along the journey. 

You don’t deserve this. 

You’re a whole destination. 

Put that in your mind. 

I know it’s going to be painful, 

but what is the goodness does it bring you? 

What good is there in staying in a place,

if its going to break you into thousand pieces? 

What’s your love to them?

Nothing. 

You can no longer trust them.

So, leave. 

Pack your bags. Leave your heart.

Leave your heart behind.

And run away. From everything. 

From the one you love. 

from the one who breaks you.

the one who’s hurting you, deeply. 

People change, love. 

They’ve changed, too. 

So leave. Go on your own adventure.

Bid goodbye to this fake world. 

And embrace the cosmos. 

That is where you belong.

The cloud of confusions. 

tumblr_m9cbm64ZP21r25xgkThe decisions we take in life are never easy, we all have been there and we all know it. The stress of choosing what we want and what we must have. And often, we choose what we “must” have over what we “want”, because that seems rational, in a good sense. Then we end up disliking what we choose because apparently, we don’t like what we choose because that’s not what we want. But they’re people who likes all the “Musts”. Trust me there are. Example? Well, Parents 😉 . Yeah, I’ve got you on that. LOL.  Alright, before I throw light upon this “controversial – subject” , I just want to say, that I’m not going to cook up stories that’s gonna trigger the taste buds of your wonderful mind, I’m just going to speak truth, as what I think is the truth.

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During my school days, I wish my parents asked for my opinion while choosing the right school for me, I was a brilliant kid, but it wasn’t the pleasant years of my life. I remember when I graduated from High School, my parents bragged to their friends and relatives about how confused they were, then they both agreed they’ve made the right decision, when they selected this particular school. All I did was so cliché,  I went into my room, look at my own reflection in the mirror, and said “Mirror mirror on the wall, who are they kidding after all?”  They choose which school I “must” be then which school they “want” me to be in . I wish my parent’s were not so confused , they they over-thought , well, I believe it could have resulted a better outcome. I wish.  But parents, they just want the best from us. No complains.

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The next step in life, choosing college to continue my journey, well, I finally got the freedom I yearned for but then with limited choices. Yeah, my parents helped me to ease down the overwhelming stress I felt. They said “ Choose what is the best for you” , well what they meant by that is to choose what you “must” have over what you “want” . Yet again, I was confused. What I want? And what I must have? With all the rules and regulations, limitations set by my parents, I finally pick the college that seems promising to me – well not so, but I did enjoy my days in college *thumbs up* . 

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Currently, I’m not doing a job that I would love to do, but I “must” do it. Because for various reasons, the “must” seems logical, good, and always  the positive , but trust me, nothing seems to be the way it is for a long time. I’m pretty sure, if I am to do something I must do and let go something that I want to do, I’m pretty sure, I’ll break down one day, and things will go really bad !  Moral of the story ?

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Always do something you want to do, don’t do something because you must do it. Still it depends on various factors! The most vital factor, you ask me? PARENTS !  But if you have the freedom to do something without anyone’s permission, follow you what you want !

“Just don’t give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don’t think you can go wrong.”

Ella Fitzgerald

In my own “world”.. 

This is neither one of my funny posts, nor a serious one. It’s just something that I would share with the world. 


I’m not a person that gets scared easily, neither the one that loses her mind at every bad happenings  nor I ignore it. I pay attention to every details of it, missing nothing, sometimes I jot them down , in a memo pad, somewhere, in my brain. I often work on it and make it better, and oath to not repeat the same mistake, ever, again. But then, I often fail in one particular subject, the one which is way more difficult than Calculus. Funny it sounds – its commonly known as “ the art of reading faces”. I came along my way, knowing many people, but just a few, turned out to be who they say they are. And I’m proud to have known them in my life , well among the people in masks, I’ve found genuine ones! 

But the fact that I know some humans are trustable, at a point wasn’t really helping me to diminish the fear I had inside of me. The fear of investing my time and feelings on the wrong person ( or a group) .  I bet everyone knows how it feels when your heart is broken.  The pain is so real, that you actually think there is someone sticking knife on your heart. As terrible it sounds, the feeling of it, is  always gazillionth times worst! Now, imagine me, going through that , over and over again, like a cycle. HELL ! I’m not trying to project myself as a victim here, but I’m just sharing stuffs – * I never thought , this could be so difficult :/ *

Well, I am not saying that I am a super nice person, but I know I won’t be able to make someone’s life a living hell. I’m not a backstabber. And I always protect my friends. I stood by these “good people” during their worst days – and they  still choose to go away, in an ugly situation. Broke my trust and heart :/ , worst made me felt so dumb, and had me doubting my own judgement *Gosh how people change, like so fast* . Most of them often seem to be naive and sweethearts, and when their mask are ripped off, they turned out, to be a devil in disguise.  The sad thing is that, I believed the mask they were wearing as the truth, and judged them, based on their fake personality ( well, of course , I don’t know it was fake back then 😛 ). Disappointments kept pouring in my life, that at a point,  I gave up judging and trusting people, from quickly, to not at all. 

But as usual, that too, didn’t last long. Yes, I’ve started to trust people, again, but my previous experiences, became a huge help in my process of judging people. Most of the time, I was right. And yes,  I’ve learned lessons, lots of lessons. First and foremost, I’ve learned that human feelings are not constant.  I’ve learned that, the sweetest, and nicest ones are often the devil in disguise. I’ve learned that I need to make peace with myself, when I make mistakes. And I’ve also learned that, I am my own best friend, and I am the only one that knows me better than anyone, and I must put myself at the top place in my priority list. 

As time flies, and I grew older, many things came into my mind. I’ve started to realize that whatever happened, happened for a very good reason. And for that reason , I’ve escaped from the worst mistake I could make , in my whole – and that is having “toxic” people around *I’ve happily detoxified my life now :P* .  And all that happened, taught me many good things, that will be my guideline, throughout my life journey. My experiences have shaped me into who I am today, and made me a stronger person. Someone that I am proud off.   Well, life is not a straight road. Without the curves and loops, we’re not going to be grateful when we reach the destination. 

I would love to spend time with my good friends, but to be honest, I actually prefer to spend most of my time, alone. It makes me feel more secure and gives me a peaceful state of mind. And I love being in my own world. 

Running to a Rainbow.. 

New hopes ! New dreams ! – New Year ! Happy New Year !! I can’t believe we’re already on the sixth day of the year, and I feel like time is moving fast. Still not sure if it’s the time, me or just some solar system phenomenon 😛 . 

And speaking about New Year, there must be new resolutions too, therefore I’m gonna list down the resolutions I made this year 😉 : 

  1. Sleep less.. 
  2. Eat more..
  3. Waste more money..
  4. Stop working out.. 
  5. Resign from the current job.. 

And the list goes on..  

Gosh that was a tough one ! It took me *counts fingers* , argh , I really cannot figure it out, but roughly I think it took me – 5 MINUTES ! Oh yeah, you read it right 😛 .. Well, as we all know, resolutions are made so that we’ll never follow it , so whatever we write in our “Book of Resolution”,  don’t really matter. I’m not saying that ALL of us wouldn’t follow it, but seriously, it’s easier to count the number of people that are determined to accomplished their “ Mission Resolution” , then the ones that follows it. Well, all of them,  are indeed couch potatoes *raises hand, that includes me, hehehe – grins like ronald mcdonald* 😛 .

Based on the facts, you’ve read above 😛 ,  I’ve decided not to write any resolutions this year. Argh, not at all ! But that doesn’t make me a doubled couch potato 😛 ( I created this term – doubled couch potato, *raises eyebrow* cool isn’t it? 😉 😛 ) . I am just going to work them rather than writing down what I want to do, without doing a single thing to work it. It’s easier to write and pretend like I’m on some mission impossible thingy – who am I kidding? ( I really wish I was as hot as Tom Cruise, if I was a guy :/ , but I think its not late for a gender change operation – LOL JK , hehehe :/ *looks around like a thief 😐 * . 

Back to my “doubled couch potato” chapter, what I am saying is that, stop wasting that ink, and save the trees by not writing your resolutions on a piece of paper – when you know you not gonna do it ! :/ . I mean just stop this whole resolution fuss and just start doing it ! -_- , I know you’ll be able to do it, because I did, and it feels great. But in the end of the day – you’re the one to decide what you want to do in your life, so it doesnt really matter what I’ve wrote above 😛 . 

Happy New Year , Peeps ! Keep doing things that you love. Care less about what people think about you and never stop loving yourself 😉 ❤ . 

Till the next time we meet *counting days* … Ciao 😉 *bhaaaaagoooooooo* 😛 😉