In my own “world”.. 

This is neither one of my funny posts, nor a serious one. It’s just something that I would share with the world. 

I’m not a person that gets scared easily, neither the one that loses her mind at every bad happenings  nor I ignore it. I pay attention to every details of it, missing nothing, sometimes I jot them down , in a memo pad, somewhere, in my brain. I often work on it and make it better, and oath to not repeat the same mistake, ever, again. But then, I often fail in one particular subject, the one which is way more difficult than Calculus. Funny it sounds – its commonly known as “ the art of reading faces”. I came along my way, knowing many people, but just a few, turned out to be who they say they are. And I’m proud to have known them in my life , well among the people in masks, I’ve found genuine ones! 

But the fact that I know some humans are trustable, at a point wasn’t really helping me to diminish the fear I had inside of me. The fear of investing my time and feelings on the wrong person ( or a group) .  I bet everyone knows how it feels when your heart is broken.  The pain is so real, that you actually think there is someone sticking knife on your heart. As terrible it sounds, the feeling of it, is  always gazillionth times worst! Now, imagine me, going through that , over and over again, like a cycle. HELL ! I’m not trying to project myself as a victim here, but I’m just sharing stuffs – * I never thought , this could be so difficult :/ *

Well, I am not saying that I am a super nice person, but I know I won’t be able to make someone’s life a living hell. I’m not a backstabber. And I always protect my friends. I stood by these “good people” during their worst days – and they  still choose to go away, in an ugly situation. Broke my trust and heart :/ , worst made me felt so dumb, and had me doubting my own judgement *Gosh how people change, like so fast* . Most of them often seem to be naive and sweethearts, and when their mask are ripped off, they turned out, to be a devil in disguise.  The sad thing is that, I believed the mask they were wearing as the truth, and judged them, based on their fake personality ( well, of course , I don’t know it was fake back then 😛 ). Disappointments kept pouring in my life, that at a point,  I gave up judging and trusting people, from quickly, to not at all. 

But as usual, that too, didn’t last long. Yes, I’ve started to trust people, again, but my previous experiences, became a huge help in my process of judging people. Most of the time, I was right. And yes,  I’ve learned lessons, lots of lessons. First and foremost, I’ve learned that human feelings are not constant.  I’ve learned that, the sweetest, and nicest ones are often the devil in disguise. I’ve learned that I need to make peace with myself, when I make mistakes. And I’ve also learned that, I am my own best friend, and I am the only one that knows me better than anyone, and I must put myself at the top place in my priority list. 

As time flies, and I grew older, many things came into my mind. I’ve started to realize that whatever happened, happened for a very good reason. And for that reason , I’ve escaped from the worst mistake I could make , in my whole – and that is having “toxic” people around *I’ve happily detoxified my life now :P* .  And all that happened, taught me many good things, that will be my guideline, throughout my life journey. My experiences have shaped me into who I am today, and made me a stronger person. Someone that I am proud off.   Well, life is not a straight road. Without the curves and loops, we’re not going to be grateful when we reach the destination. 

I would love to spend time with my good friends, but to be honest, I actually prefer to spend most of my time, alone. It makes me feel more secure and gives me a peaceful state of mind. And I love being in my own world. 

Running to a Rainbow.. 

New hopes ! New dreams ! – New Year ! Happy New Year !! I can’t believe we’re already on the sixth day of the year, and I feel like time is moving fast. Still not sure if it’s the time, me or just some solar system phenomenon 😛 . 

And speaking about New Year, there must be new resolutions too, therefore I’m gonna list down the resolutions I made this year 😉 : 

  1. Sleep less.. 
  2. Eat more..
  3. Waste more money..
  4. Stop working out.. 
  5. Resign from the current job.. 

And the list goes on..  

Gosh that was a tough one ! It took me *counts fingers* , argh , I really cannot figure it out, but roughly I think it took me – 5 MINUTES ! Oh yeah, you read it right 😛 .. Well, as we all know, resolutions are made so that we’ll never follow it , so whatever we write in our “Book of Resolution”,  don’t really matter. I’m not saying that ALL of us wouldn’t follow it, but seriously, it’s easier to count the number of people that are determined to accomplished their “ Mission Resolution” , then the ones that follows it. Well, all of them,  are indeed couch potatoes *raises hand, that includes me, hehehe – grins like ronald mcdonald* 😛 .

Based on the facts, you’ve read above 😛 ,  I’ve decided not to write any resolutions this year. Argh, not at all ! But that doesn’t make me a doubled couch potato 😛 ( I created this term – doubled couch potato, *raises eyebrow* cool isn’t it? 😉 😛 ) . I am just going to work them rather than writing down what I want to do, without doing a single thing to work it. It’s easier to write and pretend like I’m on some mission impossible thingy – who am I kidding? ( I really wish I was as hot as Tom Cruise, if I was a guy :/ , but I think its not late for a gender change operation – LOL JK , hehehe :/ *looks around like a thief 😐 * . 

Back to my “doubled couch potato” chapter, what I am saying is that, stop wasting that ink, and save the trees by not writing your resolutions on a piece of paper – when you know you not gonna do it ! :/ . I mean just stop this whole resolution fuss and just start doing it ! -_- , I know you’ll be able to do it, because I did, and it feels great. But in the end of the day – you’re the one to decide what you want to do in your life, so it doesnt really matter what I’ve wrote above 😛 . 

Happy New Year , Peeps ! Keep doing things that you love. Care less about what people think about you and never stop loving yourself 😉 ❤ . 

Till the next time we meet *counting days* … Ciao 😉 *bhaaaaagoooooooo* 😛 😉 

Title? Gosh not now.. 

Finally *phew* !

 Alright, not the first time I am writing on a blog, I have too much of them, *coughs*, well , guess sometimes we just got to start from scratch 😉 . Oh well, not gonna write an essay about myself, guess let me be “the one with the mask” 😉 , but I know my friends are reading this right now, yeah my fidus Achates, I love you all, now zip your mouth, i’ve got my eyes on you *raise the eyebrow* , okay not scary but it was fun. LOL. Anyways, if you’re looking for some sophiscated writing, Uh-no, you’re in the wrong nest, it’s on the other side of Google *giggles*. Okay, yeah I know, not funny -_- . Perhaps, I can write all these in a diary, but what’s the fun of writing in a book and keep it under your pillow or ( some other secret place 😉 😛 ) well, you know gonna send it to some recycle centre, and your book of dramas gonna vanish into a heap of recycling papers. Well, I won’t be able to bear that *black stream flowing from my eyes*, there goes my L’oreal , *the quote was certainly right, women tears are indeed EXPENSIVE*. *Snaps back into the scribbling process* – this is what keeps me content, and I love writing ( although sometimes it makes complete no sense, but who really cares? Atleast not me 😛 ) . 

Till the next time we meet *counting days* … Toodles 😉 *bhaaaaagoooooooo* 😛 😉